I'm commonly known as Madelyn, but my official super pretentious obnoxious gothy dj name is d j . d r o w n.

I've been spinning in clubs since November of '98, and I DJ'd in college radio from '86 until '94, which is where I learned much of what I know about music and DJing.

Back when I was a beginning DJ and music fan, no one I knew ever described themselves as "gothic" or "industrial" or a "rivethead," or anything like that. Most people I knew and associated with called themselves "punks" or "freaks" or maybe "wavers" or just "alternative." We listened to the music we liked, and we were excited by new sounds.

My first radio show was a "Two for Tuesday" show on a Album-Oriented Rock formatted time slot! I played a lot of David Bowie, the Smithereens, the Fixx, and Iggy Pop to survive that!

Later, I got my own "alternative" slot, in which I could play just about anything I wanted. My rotation covered the whole gamut -- including punk (Dead Kennedies to Fear), industrial (I was a huge Skinny Puppy fan then), jangly southern alternative rock (R.E.M. and the Connells, for instance), British pop (James, the Housemartins, the Smiths, etc), darker alternative (Gene Loves Jezabel and the Bolshoi), synthy techno pop (the Pet Shop Boys and Depeche Mode), and later, goth and goth rock and even world music from Europe and India! I'd play that many styles, and more, in a 3-hour span, and people loved it.

It was a long time before I started calling myself "gothic," and to this day, it's an uneasy label for me. Even though I find a lot to love in the gothic subculture, there's a lot to love outside of it, too... and a lot of people who think that if you use the term "gothic," you instantly lose all credibility. Considering some of the people who think that are barely on the outskirts of goth themselves, it's really quite sad.

So, when I DJ, you'll also hear a lot of goth and gothic rock. You'll also hear industrial and ebm, synth and new wave and maybe even a little punk from time to time. I like to play requests. And no, I'm not nearly so fierce as I look in that photo! You can see what I play at or view my club CD collection. Please feel free to request songs; if I don't have them, I'll do my best to find and spin them (or at least listen to them).

I've had the opportunity to DJ with a number of other excellent DJs. DJing is never a solitary endeavor -- we learn from others and improve our knowledge and abilities from working with fellow spinners. Unfortunately, it's a dog-eat-dog world, but I refuse to become part of that. Please visit the links page for a list of my co-DJs over the years, and links to their sites.

When I'm not DJing, I work as a documentation specalist for a local company. I've helped promote events like the Dark Arts Festival, modeled for a local photographer, Jeff Carlisle, who shot all the photos on this site, and run a gothic volunteer community service organization called G.O.T.H.I.C.S. I maintain a number of websites including Utah Underground and the G.O.T.H.I.C.S. site. You can learn more about me at my own site, All the Things that We Have Lost.